May 2010 Recap

As I stated in my last post, May did not go at all according to plan. I know that was mostly my fault and I accept the consequences of my actions. Sure, I feel bad about it and I'm kicking myself. I'm angry. But really, there's nothing I can do about the time that's past.

Instead, I'm focusing on the future. June will be better than May! I will it to be so. I've already started getting back to my good habits. I don't feel like I'm starting completely over, but almost.

May did teach me one lesson. I can maintain my current weight with little effort, which to me is excellent news. I didn't want to find out that I had gained those 30 pounds back. I was anxious about stepping on the scale after those first few bad weeks. But the numbers weren't as scary as I thought. And after a little work, I managed to end up just about where I started the month at. 

So to recap:   as of April 30, 2010 - 286.4
                     as of May 31, 2010 - 285.2
                     Total lost in May  -1.2
                     Total lost in 2010 -33.3

Of course I would have liked to lose more that 1.2 pounds, but I'm still counting it as a win! It was a rough month, and honestly, I'm still dealing with emotional issues. But I'm TRYING. I go through phases where I don't know how I'm ever going to get past these issues. Other times, I can feel myself starting to heal.

Stealing a quote from a fellow blogger,

I would give May a C, honestly. But June? AN A+!

And that's exactly how I'm going to look at this month! Thanks Melissa for the encouraging words.