A two pound loss......what?!?!

I don't deserve the two pound lost I reported for last week. I didn't exercise. I didn't eat right. I didn't do anything that was good for me.

I seriously don't know how I still managed a loss. Maybe I didn't do anything overly wrong that would create a gain.

Basically, I'm maintaining. I've been in this same weight range for a long time now. Over a year or more, I think.

But I don't want to maintain. I want to LOSE! I need to start exercising and stop eating junk food at work. These are my two biggest obstacles.

On another note, my friend and I are no longer calling each other every weekend. We never really got started. It only lasted like 2 weeks. So there goes that support system. But it's so hard when she's 6 hours away. We can't work out together like we used to anymore.

I'm all alone in this.

Weekend Weigh-In

I hate this fluctuation! Up and down, then repeat!

I know what I'm doing wrong. I just don't know why I can't force myself to change my ways. Something in my mind is not right. I know eating food from the snack bar at work is bad for me, yet every day, I do it anyway. I know getting seconds will make me feel awful later, but I do it anyway. I know playing on the computer instead of exercising is being lazy, but I do it anyway.

Is there a drug or vitamin or something out there that can change the way a person thinks? Something that can force me to take better care of myself? Because apparently, I can't do it of my own accord.

What's wrong with me?

Weigh - Ins

A new feature on the blog today is the reporting of my current weight. I felt that maybe putting it down where it stayed as a reminder would help me to keep focused.

As anyone can see, I gained 5 pounds after my first week of recording. That was awful! I knew it was coming though. Whenever I try to restrict myself, this happens. I sabotage myself.

Thankfully, I lost some of that weight the next week. So far this week, things haven't been going so great in the exercise department, but I'm still trying to watch what I eat. The biggest change I've made is the amount of water I'm drinking.

I've increased my water intake by 100%! I never drank it before, but now it's what I drink most of the time. And I've stopped drinking pop. That was hard at first; I have caffeine withdrawal headaches, but now I'm much better!

Here's to the little changes!

Giving GI a try

I've been doing some reading on the Glycemic Index. I think this is the type of diet that I need to be following. I still need to do more research to fully understand it.

The basic idea is that not all carbohydrates are created equally. Carbs can effect our insulin levels differently. There are "low GI carbs - medium GI carbs - and high GI carbs. It's important to eat the high GI carbs in moderation.

I'm going to try and make small changes so that I can begin a healthier lifestyle. I've already done more than I've ever done before, in starting this blog and joining a few websites to help track calories.

This is my turn.

Weekly Weigh Ins

Week 1
6/20 - 311
Week 2
6/27 - 316 (+5)
Week 3
7/4 - 313 (-3)
Week 4
7/11 - 316.5 (+3.5)
Week 5
7/18 - 315 (-1.5)
Week 6
7/25 - 313 (-2)
Week 7
8/1 - 315.5 (+2.5)
Week 8
8/8 - 314.5 (-1)
Week 9
8/15 - 316 (+2)
Week 10
8/22 - 315.5 (-.5)
Week 11
8/29 - 317.5 (+2)
Week 11
9/05 - 316.5 (-1)
Week 12
9/12 - 314 (-2.5)
Week 13
9/19 - 315 (+1)
Week 14
9/26 - 315 (0)
Week 15
10/3 - 318 (+3)
Week 16
10/10 - 319 (+1)
Week 17
10/3 - 315 (-4)
Week 18
10/10 - forgot to weigh in
Week 19
10/17 - 315 (no change from two weeks prior)
Week 20
10/24 - 315.5 (+.5)
Week 21
10/31 - 314.5 (-1)
Week 24
11/21 - 310.5 (-4)
Week 25
11/28 - 312 (+1.5

A Minor Setback

So....I was doing really great for a total of 4 hours. I did all the research online. My lunch was within my point range and I had lots of good intentions.

I came home and moved the coffee table out of the way, so I could pull out Wii Fit. I moved the exercise bike into a more usable position. And I changed into comfy clothes that I could work out in.

But things went down hill from there. Instead of starting right away, I sat down at the computer. Big mistake! I was only going to look at a few blogs before getting started. Unfortunately, I landed on a page that showed pictures of these yummy looking cupcakes in ice cream cones.
That made me remember the ice cream in the fridge. It was bought before I really wanted to try going on a diet. So I made an ice cream cone. After that, it was like, "well I've already messed up, so I may as well enjoy it. I'll start tomorrow." I had a huge bowl of cereal and then later ate some Ramen.

Now I'm sitting here feeling stuffed to the gills. And I hate myself for it. Every time I try to limit myself, I end up going all out. I hate the restriction, so I sabotage myself.

I hope I can pick myself up after this setback. I'd like to get on track tomorrow. I don't want to keep making excuses for myself.

Tools To Help

I joined an online weight loss community called Calorie Count. I created a profile and actually typed out my current weight. I posted in an introduce yourself section. I even started tracking my food.

I hope to use it much more often. It has a section for tracking your activity and your weight loss. Plus there are recipes and such on there as well. The great thing about it is that it's all free! That, along with the weight watchers point calculator that I found online, and my friend's help, I'm hoping to keep myself in line.

I also bookmarked some other great sites for recipes. I hope that by planning out my meals, I will be able to restrict my calorie intake. Not buying snack foods at the grocery store will certainly help.

I really need this to be my turn.