This is going to be short and sweet, but I didn't want to skip my monthly recap post. I'm still sorting through a lot of emotions right now. Honestly, I don't know how to make myself feel better. My husband says I have to force myself to focus on the good things. But that seems so false. I don't want to pretend I'm happy just for the sake of other people. But I don't want to keep being miserable either....
At my lowest point in April, I weighed 285.8. That was right after finishing the Jillian Michael's Jumpstart 14 Day Cleanse and Burn. Since then, I've put on a little bit of weight. That's no surprise. While I was at the hospital last week, I had McDonald's twice. It was either that or expensive hospital food that didn't taste good, or go hungry. Maybe I made the wrong choice, but it's done now.
I also allowed myself one guilt-free crash meal. Saturday night, after spending all day at the hospital, we ate at O'Charley's. Talk about emotional eating. I had bread and pasta. My body was calling for it. And I caved.
So to recap: as of March 31, 2010 - 293.2
as of April 30, 2010 - 286.4
Total lost in April -6.8
Total lost in 2010 -32.1
I'm pretty happy with April actually. I lost more than in March and I'm in the 280's! I'm disappointed that I put on a little bit since Jillian, but it's not much and it will be off soon. I know it could have been much worse considering.
We've got a family reunion coming up in mid-June and my mom will be visiting at the end of May, so I really want to focus this month on losing. It would be great to have everyone notice how much weight I've lost. I think I'd feel really awesome hearing that.
So how'd you do in April? =)